"Yeah I don't really want to talk about my mo- Mgh." Gold slaps his mouth shut, but the damage was probably already done. He prays Elio doesn't put together what he was saying.
When Elio talks about Alola, Gold keeps his mouth blocked and just nods. It really doesn't have anything to do with this, but Gold gets the feling Elio actually does feel some sort of homesickness, despite saying he doesn't have a home.
"Really? Huh, so if I'd just said what I wanted to and told you to leave back then, we woulda both gotten what we wanted. I dunno if that woulda been better though. I couldn't have said it though, I was scared the Professor would kick me out if I was nasty to you." Gold pauses, wondering if that's something he should panic about saying, but actually finds he's at ease with Elio knowing that. Huh.
The part 'it's scary when someone pays too much attention to me' has him blinking in surprise. That felt too specific.
"You got a stalker or some- No, sorry, I didn't say that, don't answer that. Too personal, I got it. I don't wanna know. But I'd totally kill- No, ugh, shut up shut up..." He presses his jaw shut, leaning against his hands. That's too much, just forget it, Elio doesn't want to talk about whatever that is.
"...I think things have already changed," he manages after a moment. "This all sucks but I already... see you as a person more than before. Ugh, that's not... That's not how I meant it, it was just you felt so alien I didn't get you and I didn't even want to get you. Ugh, that's worse!" Gold groans. "I can't say what I meant in a polite way because there is no polite way!! --I raised my voice again, sorry."
Elio bringing up the idea of going to Banyan has Gold freezing up slightly, and he shrinks into himself, still sitting down.
"Do we have to go talk to him? I don't want him to see the worst of me, I'm terrified of anybody finding out that I-" He bites his cheek to stop talking for a moment, before continuing: "He owns the house I live in, if he finds out what I'm really like he'll throw me out. No, he wouldn't do that... But I can't trust that. I can't, I can't talk to him right now..." Gold shakes his head, screwing his eyes shut.
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When Elio talks about Alola, Gold keeps his mouth blocked and just nods. It really doesn't have anything to do with this, but Gold gets the feling Elio actually does feel some sort of homesickness, despite saying he doesn't have a home.
"Really? Huh, so if I'd just said what I wanted to and told you to leave back then, we woulda both gotten what we wanted. I dunno if that woulda been better though. I couldn't have said it though, I was scared the Professor would kick me out if I was nasty to you." Gold pauses, wondering if that's something he should panic about saying, but actually finds he's at ease with Elio knowing that. Huh.
The part 'it's scary when someone pays too much attention to me' has him blinking in surprise. That felt too specific.
"You got a stalker or some- No, sorry, I didn't say that, don't answer that. Too personal, I got it. I don't wanna know. But I'd totally kill- No, ugh, shut up shut up..." He presses his jaw shut, leaning against his hands. That's too much, just forget it, Elio doesn't want to talk about whatever that is.
"...I think things have already changed," he manages after a moment. "This all sucks but I already... see you as a person more than before. Ugh, that's not... That's not how I meant it, it was just you felt so alien I didn't get you and I didn't even want to get you. Ugh, that's worse!" Gold groans. "I can't say what I meant in a polite way because there is no polite way!! --I raised my voice again, sorry."
Elio bringing up the idea of going to Banyan has Gold freezing up slightly, and he shrinks into himself, still sitting down.
"Do we have to go talk to him? I don't want him to see the worst of me, I'm terrified of anybody finding out that I-" He bites his cheek to stop talking for a moment, before continuing: "He owns the house I live in, if he finds out what I'm really like he'll throw me out. No, he wouldn't do that... But I can't trust that. I can't, I can't talk to him right now..." Gold shakes his head, screwing his eyes shut.